Good Intentions

I really don't like good intentions. As a matter of fact a STRONG Dislike comes to mind. Often if they are set up by me. In other words being ill, I have many times had so many good intentions to do something and then I couldn't follow through. I know that there have been disapointments to people that I really care about, when I have said that I would show up or do something and couldn't make it..
Even yesterday, I attempted to write about 5 times and my brain just wouldn't work. Morning, noon and night were attempted...but the words were just crap. So notes were jotted down for the time being and hopefully they will work out better today. Dealing with illness sucks. Sometimes, I just wish that I would never wake up. There is so much creativity going on in my head and it's as though I am trying to squeeze out toothpaste through a pinhole.
One thing that does help is that I pray ALOT. I always ask Jesus to help me write...even if it is just for a little while.
"Please God keep my mind clear for creative thought and my body from severe pain.
Please help me to write in your will Dear Lord and to be able to make sense on days that I can't even focus or remember what to eat. Please help me to forgive and pray for those who are upset with me for my faults or illness. Dearest Jesus, help me to hold on to you, because I know that you will never abandon me. Thank you for being there. Without You Lord I am nothing." AMEN.

Now for some errands to run...and then rest...and hopefully back to the book.

xo