I have always been a care giver and wanted to help others. My thoughts and writing were ways of reaching out to aid others to find themselves and do better. I do my best in prayer and taking the time out to give back to the community. Even so I many times can not do things in person due to illness, I do my best to help out through research and giving my time through the computer.
I have decided to right now focus on me. There is a book to be finished and since this week, I suffered horribly from illness, I am truly behind on many things. So this is just a see ya later for now...with lots of love and blessings. I need to just take care of me for awhile...Maybe it's time that some of my dreams can finally come true.
God Speed.
D'Maria
Friday, September 18, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
OVERWHELMED!
This could very easily be a blog about me, because only God knows what my life has been like, yet this writing has nothing to do with this author.
The last few weeks have been interesting to say the least. God had placed people in my life for a learning experience. Not being sure what was learned from the lesson, or what I was supposed to do to help the situation, I guess that the great Lord wanted me to do what I know best: To write. Granted I am not the best writer or the worst, though the Father knows that I do compose from my heart. For some reason He believes that I can bring some compassion into another life and show people a way to get help.
I will explain myself better…First off; all of us know how the USA has been lured into a recession. Many good folks have lost their jobs, homes, assets etc, and many have deep fear because of the unstable economy. Personally, I believe that life will get better. My Faith is very strong. Even though I am afflicted with chronic illness myself, I only take one day at a time and know that regardless of certain earthly setbacks, God has been very good to me in giving me all of my basic needs.
In this ailing Nation, many people are under distress, though the ones that my heart goes out to the most are the truly wounded. These are the ones who have been unable to come out of the trenches or have been so abused they have no idea how to survive on their own.
At first my soul was aching over a homeless shelter, which had deteriorated through the years. With the owner of the shelter becoming ill, the haven has had many problems. Living on disability myself, there isn’t much I can do financially for them, but I have been doing my best to get the word out so that they can receive donations or items needed to help them get back on their feet. There have been harsh words said over this particular domain…that it probably isn’t savable, yet for some reason God keeps placing this refuge on my heart and I believe that there is hope for it. This shelter had been around for many years and in being so it has fed, and sheltered many a lost soul. They have AA and NA meetings, Bible study and they are the first the newspapers will write up about a place for those to go when the weather turns too cold to survive outside. The name of this shelter is Holy Ground and is located in Hudson, Florida. The all addresses/websites will be available at the end of this article.
I honestly feel that God put this shelter where it is for a reason. Now it is time for the community to help them.
Oh I can here the groans from a distance…”Community? Taxpayers? Help?”
Uh…yes and absolutely. I sincerely believe that we have a responsibility to those who are suffering in a community. Whether a child, adult, elderly, mentally ill, disabled, or even a pet needs help we should never leave anyone one behind. I know Americans are the most gracious people yet I know in my heart of hearts that people are unaware of what is truly happening to pets and families. Sometimes all that is needed is ONE dollar. I have this theory if everyone would just lay aside a few dollars of change aside each month (that is everyone in America who is unable to give more) you can give a one dollar donation to five different charities. It seems cheap? No. If only every single person in the USA made a commitment to put aside five dollars a month…we can feed people and abandoned pets. Many times charities call or send letters asking for a great deal more. If a person has that to give…awesome…if not everyone come together to help others out.
Okay, putting this idea aside for now. In the last few weeks I had also come across two unbelievably dedicated women, who are going broke taking care of abandoned/abused animals.
The first woman is named RaeAnna and she takes care of many abandoned cats and kittens at The Little Cats Rescue in Pasco County. I had actually sent her an email uncertain whether or not to let go of my kitten. My kitten is a short haired, grey tuxedo named Ronzoni, but I have severe asthma and my condition has been getting worse. Loving the kitten, I decided I couldn’t let her go and just need to make some other living adjustments (for me). Talking to RaeAnna though, truly opened my eyes. As strong as this incredible women is to take care of these animals, she was almost to tears, talking about how people just throw away their pets. My heart went out to her and even with the guilt that I felt emailing her; I am glad that we spoke.
A few days later, I went to Pet Co in Port Richey to buy some treats for my pets (I also have a dog). My first thought as I walked into the store was to look at the cats and kittens. I adore animals and even allergic just wanted to give some mental love to these forgotten creatures.
Cleaning out the cages was a woman named Gina. We spoke for a long time about abandoned animals and she was crying over what the animals are going through during this recession. I thought that she worked for Pet Co, but actually Pet Co, allows her to used cages to adopt cats and kittens from the Feline Sanctuary Inc. This woman (as Rae Anna) also saves and rehabilitates cats (and some dogs) to give them a home. My heart just sank at the stories and tears that Gina told me about. She spends thirty dollars a day to feed these animals. This does not include the spaying, neutering and shots as well. I was amazed at the courage of these two women who I had spoke to and met this week.
That’s when the idea of how I could help lay heavy on my heart. These are just places that I stumbled upon and there are many more as one probably reads from the media. There is no excuse to throw animals or people away, yet it does happen. So I am on a mission to save five dollars a month, from snacks, latte’s, energy drinks, or any other spurge goodies (which aren’t many on what I get), but even so to put change aside to just give to some organizations. Whether a person picks five organizations or two a month…to just give some change to help out these marvelous volunteers who go out of their way to save lives. If one is unable to give any money…volunteers are always needed. They say it “Takes a Village to raise a child”. A community needs to help out its neighbors. Everyone being there for someone…my gosh…we may even get our America back. You know the one where Pilgrims or Settlers built each others barn and cared about each other.
This is also a great way to teach our children whether at home or school. Everyone get involved…to make a commitment. Just five dollars a month. Save our homeless (many are children), food pantries, animal shelters. Save our country. I never in my many years have seen so many thrown away people or pets. It’s an epidemic. All of us can change this. Below are the organizations that I spoke about. You may have your own, of course, but this is just in case you want to save these remarkable and overwhelmed safe harbors.
You will find Gina at the Pet Co on US.19 Port Richey, most times taking care of the cats and cages. RaeAnna uses the cages at Pets Mart in the Trinity Area.
I am aware that people tithe at church or that they have maybe a private charity that they give to. Our country, friends, children and pets are hurting. Donations have gone down to nil. So please help. Please search your heart to help others in need. We all have problems and illnesses, yet to give to others is also an extra special gift that we are given to our souls. It truly doesn’t take all that much if we all pitch in. Thank you.
Holy Ground HomelessShelter
8835 Denton Ave
Hudson, Fl 34667-4338
RaeAnna Saks
Founder, CEO
The Little Cat's Rescue, Inc
http://www.thelittlecatsrescue.org/
Feline Sanctuary, Inc
Cat Rescue and Rehabilitation
P.O. Box 6813, Hudson Fl 34674
feline_sanctuary@yahoo.com
The last few weeks have been interesting to say the least. God had placed people in my life for a learning experience. Not being sure what was learned from the lesson, or what I was supposed to do to help the situation, I guess that the great Lord wanted me to do what I know best: To write. Granted I am not the best writer or the worst, though the Father knows that I do compose from my heart. For some reason He believes that I can bring some compassion into another life and show people a way to get help.
I will explain myself better…First off; all of us know how the USA has been lured into a recession. Many good folks have lost their jobs, homes, assets etc, and many have deep fear because of the unstable economy. Personally, I believe that life will get better. My Faith is very strong. Even though I am afflicted with chronic illness myself, I only take one day at a time and know that regardless of certain earthly setbacks, God has been very good to me in giving me all of my basic needs.
In this ailing Nation, many people are under distress, though the ones that my heart goes out to the most are the truly wounded. These are the ones who have been unable to come out of the trenches or have been so abused they have no idea how to survive on their own.
At first my soul was aching over a homeless shelter, which had deteriorated through the years. With the owner of the shelter becoming ill, the haven has had many problems. Living on disability myself, there isn’t much I can do financially for them, but I have been doing my best to get the word out so that they can receive donations or items needed to help them get back on their feet. There have been harsh words said over this particular domain…that it probably isn’t savable, yet for some reason God keeps placing this refuge on my heart and I believe that there is hope for it. This shelter had been around for many years and in being so it has fed, and sheltered many a lost soul. They have AA and NA meetings, Bible study and they are the first the newspapers will write up about a place for those to go when the weather turns too cold to survive outside. The name of this shelter is Holy Ground and is located in Hudson, Florida. The all addresses/websites will be available at the end of this article.
I honestly feel that God put this shelter where it is for a reason. Now it is time for the community to help them.
Oh I can here the groans from a distance…”Community? Taxpayers? Help?”
Uh…yes and absolutely. I sincerely believe that we have a responsibility to those who are suffering in a community. Whether a child, adult, elderly, mentally ill, disabled, or even a pet needs help we should never leave anyone one behind. I know Americans are the most gracious people yet I know in my heart of hearts that people are unaware of what is truly happening to pets and families. Sometimes all that is needed is ONE dollar. I have this theory if everyone would just lay aside a few dollars of change aside each month (that is everyone in America who is unable to give more) you can give a one dollar donation to five different charities. It seems cheap? No. If only every single person in the USA made a commitment to put aside five dollars a month…we can feed people and abandoned pets. Many times charities call or send letters asking for a great deal more. If a person has that to give…awesome…if not everyone come together to help others out.
Okay, putting this idea aside for now. In the last few weeks I had also come across two unbelievably dedicated women, who are going broke taking care of abandoned/abused animals.
The first woman is named RaeAnna and she takes care of many abandoned cats and kittens at The Little Cats Rescue in Pasco County. I had actually sent her an email uncertain whether or not to let go of my kitten. My kitten is a short haired, grey tuxedo named Ronzoni, but I have severe asthma and my condition has been getting worse. Loving the kitten, I decided I couldn’t let her go and just need to make some other living adjustments (for me). Talking to RaeAnna though, truly opened my eyes. As strong as this incredible women is to take care of these animals, she was almost to tears, talking about how people just throw away their pets. My heart went out to her and even with the guilt that I felt emailing her; I am glad that we spoke.
A few days later, I went to Pet Co in Port Richey to buy some treats for my pets (I also have a dog). My first thought as I walked into the store was to look at the cats and kittens. I adore animals and even allergic just wanted to give some mental love to these forgotten creatures.
Cleaning out the cages was a woman named Gina. We spoke for a long time about abandoned animals and she was crying over what the animals are going through during this recession. I thought that she worked for Pet Co, but actually Pet Co, allows her to used cages to adopt cats and kittens from the Feline Sanctuary Inc. This woman (as Rae Anna) also saves and rehabilitates cats (and some dogs) to give them a home. My heart just sank at the stories and tears that Gina told me about. She spends thirty dollars a day to feed these animals. This does not include the spaying, neutering and shots as well. I was amazed at the courage of these two women who I had spoke to and met this week.
That’s when the idea of how I could help lay heavy on my heart. These are just places that I stumbled upon and there are many more as one probably reads from the media. There is no excuse to throw animals or people away, yet it does happen. So I am on a mission to save five dollars a month, from snacks, latte’s, energy drinks, or any other spurge goodies (which aren’t many on what I get), but even so to put change aside to just give to some organizations. Whether a person picks five organizations or two a month…to just give some change to help out these marvelous volunteers who go out of their way to save lives. If one is unable to give any money…volunteers are always needed. They say it “Takes a Village to raise a child”. A community needs to help out its neighbors. Everyone being there for someone…my gosh…we may even get our America back. You know the one where Pilgrims or Settlers built each others barn and cared about each other.
This is also a great way to teach our children whether at home or school. Everyone get involved…to make a commitment. Just five dollars a month. Save our homeless (many are children), food pantries, animal shelters. Save our country. I never in my many years have seen so many thrown away people or pets. It’s an epidemic. All of us can change this. Below are the organizations that I spoke about. You may have your own, of course, but this is just in case you want to save these remarkable and overwhelmed safe harbors.
You will find Gina at the Pet Co on US.19 Port Richey, most times taking care of the cats and cages. RaeAnna uses the cages at Pets Mart in the Trinity Area.
I am aware that people tithe at church or that they have maybe a private charity that they give to. Our country, friends, children and pets are hurting. Donations have gone down to nil. So please help. Please search your heart to help others in need. We all have problems and illnesses, yet to give to others is also an extra special gift that we are given to our souls. It truly doesn’t take all that much if we all pitch in. Thank you.
Holy Ground HomelessShelter
8835 Denton Ave
Hudson, Fl 34667-4338
RaeAnna Saks
Founder, CEO
The Little Cat's Rescue, Inc
http://www.thelittlecatsrescue.org/
Feline Sanctuary, Inc
Cat Rescue and Rehabilitation
P.O. Box 6813, Hudson Fl 34674
feline_sanctuary@yahoo.com
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Holy Ground Homeless Shelter
A few weekes ago, I went over to Holy Ground Homeless Shelter in Hudson Florida with a sister in Christ-Joy. The shelter really needs help there. Lisa Barabas-Henry the owner of the shelter has taken ill for a long time and the shelter which houses about 45 people right now is in dire need of supplies and donations. A child even lives there and my heart goes out to this little one, because the shelter is in a depressed state. They have a chapel and a thrift store, yet they seem overwhelmed.
Many years ago, when I lived in the woods I had gone to this shelter and they were kind to me. Unfortunately, having a cat, I was unable to have residency at the tidy Holy Ground.
Today though, life has changed dramatically as illness and depression can create sad situations in any family. Holy Ground is unable to get Goverment Grants because they pray on the property. This really upsets me because I thought that we had the right to pray. This institution helps feed, clothe and house thousands of homeless through the years.
This shelter does not only need donations and food, but they also need simple items as toliet paper, cleaners, disenfectants, hand soaps, laundry detergent. Holy Ground does not have a website, yet if you do a search, you will see what they have been going through. All you have to do is do a search on Holy Ground "Hudson, Florida".
Here is the address if you wish to give a donation. If you want a tax deduction please just send a self addressed stamped envelope and ask them and they will write you out one.
Here is the address:
Attn: Lisa Barbabas-Henry
Holy Ground Homeless Shelter
8835 Denton Ave.
Hudson, Fl 34667 Phone is 727-863-9123
As mentioned earlier you can look up this shelter and all they do online-
Holy Ground Shelter "Hudson Florida"
God Bless you for reading this.
This just stays on my heart and they need so much help. Many homeless are our Vets. Many are also families. They need our help.
Author,
D'Maria Scaglione
Many years ago, when I lived in the woods I had gone to this shelter and they were kind to me. Unfortunately, having a cat, I was unable to have residency at the tidy Holy Ground.
Today though, life has changed dramatically as illness and depression can create sad situations in any family. Holy Ground is unable to get Goverment Grants because they pray on the property. This really upsets me because I thought that we had the right to pray. This institution helps feed, clothe and house thousands of homeless through the years.
This shelter does not only need donations and food, but they also need simple items as toliet paper, cleaners, disenfectants, hand soaps, laundry detergent. Holy Ground does not have a website, yet if you do a search, you will see what they have been going through. All you have to do is do a search on Holy Ground "Hudson, Florida".
Here is the address if you wish to give a donation. If you want a tax deduction please just send a self addressed stamped envelope and ask them and they will write you out one.
Here is the address:
Attn: Lisa Barbabas-Henry
Holy Ground Homeless Shelter
8835 Denton Ave.
Hudson, Fl 34667 Phone is 727-863-9123
As mentioned earlier you can look up this shelter and all they do online-
Holy Ground Shelter "Hudson Florida"
God Bless you for reading this.
This just stays on my heart and they need so much help. Many homeless are our Vets. Many are also families. They need our help.
Author,
D'Maria Scaglione
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
The Avacodo Tree
In my neighborhood we have many homes that are abundant with fruit trees. Many of the trees have been around for many years and grow tall with ripe fresh fruit. What angers me is that so many of these people just let all of the fruit rot on the trees.
There is one home in particular who has two or more avocado trees. I have never seen trees so massive and beautiful. Hundreds of avocados grow on these trees and are NEVER touched. They just rot and fall to the ground. I have taken a few of the avocados to see if they were bitter, and they were delicious. The limbs would grow over the side of the fence onto the sidewalk or I never would have taken any. This year out of spite, the owners chopped off all of the limbs hanging over the fence. The limbs were abundant with blossoms and newly infanted avocados. As summer moves on I walk by the fence and look up to see hundreds of avocados just begging to be taken. No, it's illegal for me to take them, but it really bothers me that there are so many homeless shelters and food banks that desperately need food and people are so greedy as to let hundreds of fruit rot on their trees. I don't get it. For the life of me, it just constantly boggles my mind. I keep praying that a good storm will knock off many of the avocados to the sidewalk side of the fence so that I could swoop them up and take them to a shelter or food bank.
Every day I walk past these trees and every day I pray for a storm to just knock the avocados down.
When I was a kid growing up we had all fruit trees in our yard. It was a wonderful blessing and I miss those trees and the norishment that they gave our family. We barely had colds from the vitamin C of the oranges, grapefruit, and lemons. I missed those trees when the home had been later sold. Someday I hope to have my own home to grow massive trees for fruit, nuts and berries and the abundance would always go to people who are in need.
This of course probably won't ever be seen in my lifetime. I will probably see my dreams in Heaven someday. It breaks my heart to see people hungry...especially children. As I have said before - no one in this day and age in our USA should ever be hungry, homeless or without medical care. There is just no excuse. Greed kills us all.
Blessings,
D'Maria Scaglione
There is one home in particular who has two or more avocado trees. I have never seen trees so massive and beautiful. Hundreds of avocados grow on these trees and are NEVER touched. They just rot and fall to the ground. I have taken a few of the avocados to see if they were bitter, and they were delicious. The limbs would grow over the side of the fence onto the sidewalk or I never would have taken any. This year out of spite, the owners chopped off all of the limbs hanging over the fence. The limbs were abundant with blossoms and newly infanted avocados. As summer moves on I walk by the fence and look up to see hundreds of avocados just begging to be taken. No, it's illegal for me to take them, but it really bothers me that there are so many homeless shelters and food banks that desperately need food and people are so greedy as to let hundreds of fruit rot on their trees. I don't get it. For the life of me, it just constantly boggles my mind. I keep praying that a good storm will knock off many of the avocados to the sidewalk side of the fence so that I could swoop them up and take them to a shelter or food bank.
Every day I walk past these trees and every day I pray for a storm to just knock the avocados down.
When I was a kid growing up we had all fruit trees in our yard. It was a wonderful blessing and I miss those trees and the norishment that they gave our family. We barely had colds from the vitamin C of the oranges, grapefruit, and lemons. I missed those trees when the home had been later sold. Someday I hope to have my own home to grow massive trees for fruit, nuts and berries and the abundance would always go to people who are in need.
This of course probably won't ever be seen in my lifetime. I will probably see my dreams in Heaven someday. It breaks my heart to see people hungry...especially children. As I have said before - no one in this day and age in our USA should ever be hungry, homeless or without medical care. There is just no excuse. Greed kills us all.
Blessings,
D'Maria Scaglione
Sunday, August 23, 2009
People That Do too Much
This morning I had planned to go to Trinity Church which is walking distance from my home, but my blood sugar was just too high. It totally upset me because I have been slowly losing weight, but we still can't get my sugar or bp down. Very frustrating-so I am being more deligent every day.
Years ago, I used to do sooo much and get only 4 hours sleep at night. It was something that I was so proud of, yet I guess God had me stop running and running. Nothing much was accomplished back then and it was so easy to emotionally unavailable to anyone.
I see this today in many people. They take on incredible amounts of work. Yes, some people with these harder times need to work extra jobs, that is understandable, yet then there are those that I see running in circles too. Even Pastors sometimes are incredibly busy to the point where they have no time to talk to their sheep.
Why do people take on so much. What are they attempting to accomplish if they constantly are going and taking on so much where it hurts their family, friends, Etc.
I know that being ill, I can only take on so much and I really have to pace myself as to not end up in the hospital again. At times it is frustrating because I love to write and even do things outside of the internet life, but I know that right now I have to heal and be stronger.
Even though life is not easy, God has always given me everything that I need to survive. I am just hoping though in my deepest prayer that He will help me accomplish some of the things I need to do before I leave this earth. Every day is a gift.
Years ago, I used to do sooo much and get only 4 hours sleep at night. It was something that I was so proud of, yet I guess God had me stop running and running. Nothing much was accomplished back then and it was so easy to emotionally unavailable to anyone.
I see this today in many people. They take on incredible amounts of work. Yes, some people with these harder times need to work extra jobs, that is understandable, yet then there are those that I see running in circles too. Even Pastors sometimes are incredibly busy to the point where they have no time to talk to their sheep.
Why do people take on so much. What are they attempting to accomplish if they constantly are going and taking on so much where it hurts their family, friends, Etc.
I know that being ill, I can only take on so much and I really have to pace myself as to not end up in the hospital again. At times it is frustrating because I love to write and even do things outside of the internet life, but I know that right now I have to heal and be stronger.
Even though life is not easy, God has always given me everything that I need to survive. I am just hoping though in my deepest prayer that He will help me accomplish some of the things I need to do before I leave this earth. Every day is a gift.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
What to Say...What To Say
This morning I woke up and thought...hmmmm, I am going to write this great blog and it was all in my head...you know just right there...then I went and checked emails...bopped around twitter...Art4theHomeless...Facebook...thinking of this great blog and then did the laundry...still the blog was in my head...Oh it was so good. I went to lay down for a few minutes...thinking of the blog and also about working on my book today and BAM! I fell into a deep sleep for four hours and woke up forgetting everything. Arrrrrggghhhh. The day was almost gone. Jeepers!
My health is so crappy lately. I am always falling asleep. I have a machine for sleep apnea, but today I was so exhausted. My blood pressure has been so high that I am having fevers and my diabetes is through the proverbial roof. So today...I decided to work even harder at my food plan. I am losing weight and have been since Feb 2009, but I have only lost 7 lbs. Oh how sucky that is. Inches have been lost, but I still feel like a cow. Oh somebody I know would love to hear that. LOL. A person used to always call me Ms. Cow on the internet. I hope she is well...even though she is evil.
So now I have to be more rigorous about what I eat. So I am pulling out all of the stops. I have too much to do in life then to be sick all of the time. I really need to lose about 50 lbs and that's not all that much. It's just keeping it off has always been the problem. If I were a celebrity, I would always be on the tabloids for the worst yo-yo dieter in history. They can send men into space, but they can't make a safe diet pill to help people NOT WANT TO EAT ALL THE TIME!
The tabloids are always nagging at poor Kirstie Alley...and her weight gains and loss. Thank God she is healthy because they came up with this garbage that she will die at age 62. How horrible to judge her like that. I guess we are around the same age and I hope to live til next year lol at the rate my blood tests have been going crazy.
I have always been so dang healthy years ago...who would have thought that all this crap would happen to me. God must want to keep me around though for something...
Hmmm. I wish I would know. Maybe He is wanting to tell me but I am DEAD ASLEEP DURING THE DAY!!!
Why is it that I have all of this cool energy in my head of all the things that I want to do, but my body refuses to follow through. ElSucko. Yeah, one of my favorite made up words...that kind of sums it up sometimes. God is good but life is ELSUCKO. LOL.
Well, this was not the post I had originally wanted to do. Oh well. I am off to bed. AGAIN? Ah life. ELSUCKO!
My health is so crappy lately. I am always falling asleep. I have a machine for sleep apnea, but today I was so exhausted. My blood pressure has been so high that I am having fevers and my diabetes is through the proverbial roof. So today...I decided to work even harder at my food plan. I am losing weight and have been since Feb 2009, but I have only lost 7 lbs. Oh how sucky that is. Inches have been lost, but I still feel like a cow. Oh somebody I know would love to hear that. LOL. A person used to always call me Ms. Cow on the internet. I hope she is well...even though she is evil.
So now I have to be more rigorous about what I eat. So I am pulling out all of the stops. I have too much to do in life then to be sick all of the time. I really need to lose about 50 lbs and that's not all that much. It's just keeping it off has always been the problem. If I were a celebrity, I would always be on the tabloids for the worst yo-yo dieter in history. They can send men into space, but they can't make a safe diet pill to help people NOT WANT TO EAT ALL THE TIME!
The tabloids are always nagging at poor Kirstie Alley...and her weight gains and loss. Thank God she is healthy because they came up with this garbage that she will die at age 62. How horrible to judge her like that. I guess we are around the same age and I hope to live til next year lol at the rate my blood tests have been going crazy.
I have always been so dang healthy years ago...who would have thought that all this crap would happen to me. God must want to keep me around though for something...
Hmmm. I wish I would know. Maybe He is wanting to tell me but I am DEAD ASLEEP DURING THE DAY!!!
Why is it that I have all of this cool energy in my head of all the things that I want to do, but my body refuses to follow through. ElSucko. Yeah, one of my favorite made up words...that kind of sums it up sometimes. God is good but life is ELSUCKO. LOL.
Well, this was not the post I had originally wanted to do. Oh well. I am off to bed. AGAIN? Ah life. ELSUCKO!
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Comedy Central Roast of Joan Rivers
Back in my youth when the "Rat Pack" would have a Celebrity Roast it was funny. My parents would even allow me to see them. Dean Martin, Frank Sinatra, Joey Bishop and other famous stars back in the day had incredible wit as comedians. I used to love Sid Ceaser, Carol Burnett, Red Skelton, Lucille Ball, Abbott and Costello and other greats. Those were the times when a person could sit back, relax and have a hardy laugh.
Last night I watched the Comedy Central Roasting of Joan Rivers. I haven't watched a "roast" in ages and thought this might be some fun. This show was the most disturbing, disgusting and racist show that I have EVER seen on tv. It was created of four letter words, making fun of Robin Quiver's being molested by her father as a young child, The most hideous jokes about parts of the body, and again making fun of Sarah Palin's daughter. "Joan River's has had more lifts than ____Palin's dress on prom night. My gosh... our country talks about Racism and bigotry, yet we allow comedians to talk like this?
Robin Quiver's laughed and laughed as they made fun of her color, sexuality, job, and any other racist remark that the comedians could come up with. I can't believe that this woman who was traumatized over her father molesting her as a child, was crucified about the situation by many of the comedians and giggled about it. How sad. How demented. So ever pervert who likes to hurt little children figure..."Oh yeah, this is fun and funny!" Lives are destroyed by children being sexually abused and many are our homeless, institutionalized, addicts and ruined for life. Oh yeah...this is so funny. What is wrong with these people? What is wrong with Robin Quivers?
Granted this is a roast, yet the amount of total disrespect for people, their looks, sexuality, and body parts was absolutely appalling.
Every filthy word imaginable was used in this show, and there was plenty of gory graphic sexual innuendo's --mostly from the freaky, squinty-eyed Gilbert Gottfried, who I guess is such a has-been that he needed attention and longer time on stage then he usually gets. Somebody please shoot the Afleck duck, in which Gottfried supplies the whiny voice. What a disgusting man he is. He isn't funny. He is just plan sick and perverted.
Carl Reiner-Shame on you! So you were able to say the C-word and the F-word...it was so exciting for you since the Dick Van Dyke show was censored on the word "pregnant" forty years ago. I miss those censorship days and shows as Dick Van Dyke. The writers were creative. Oh can you say the word C R E A T I V E?
The creativity of this Comedy Central show was from the brain of a Nat. Never was I a Kathy Griffen fan. As far as I am concerned she will always be on the D List. Her nasty foul mouth though seems to make her more popular than ever.
Yes, the naysayers can say that I could shut off my television or change the channel. Sure, I can always do that, but with cable bills being sky high, don't I have a right to say how I feel? I don't have HBO or Showtime...etc and would never have them. I am at the point now to cut off my cable all together because I rather read, or write or do something constructive then to watch people be paid huge amounts of money so they can curse profusely on television. Humor in Hollywood today is just plan...how can I say this delicately, GROSS.
Mario Cantone, is a well known gay comedian, but he was mild compared to the heterosexuals. The cracks that were made about him, even had him squirming at times.
Tom Arnold-Roseanne's user ex is still the same low life comedian as ever.
Jeffrey Ross-Was like a school kid in a locker room--constantly giggling at all the filth and almost falling out of his chair.
Greg Giraldo and Whitney Cummings--WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE AND WHAT PLANET DID THEY COME FROM?
Brad Garrett-From his famous "Everybody Loves Raymond" needs to go bury his head, because if anyone watched this show who loved Ray Romano's hit series will never watch a Brad Garrett show again, because he is nothing more than another disgusting rant. Oh yeah, I am no longer a fan.
I never was a fan of any of these comedians, except Joan Rivers. When she first came on stage years ago, she was absolutely hysterical. Now, she is just another over paid, loud-mouthed, foul comedian.
You can see this blatant sewage on www.ComedyCentral.com --People may say because I am a Christian that I am on the warpath, but you know it doesn't matter what religion a person is...FILTH IS FILTH. Plus, I am a not only a Christian but a mother, an American, and a person who values human life. I really miss the old comedians. They made me laugh and even gave hope. This bunch of perverts of Comedy Central demoralize Comedy and what it truly stands for. My gosh, is this the way our country is truly headed? Hollywood has absolutely no respect for children or values. I pray that Comedy Central is ripped from the grasps of cable television with other gross channels and tossed into hell where it belongs.
God bless America. We really need our prosperous country and good values back in our hearts. This is heartbreaking to see what is happening to our youth and our beliefs. Our soldiers are dying every day to up hold what we stand for...yet what DO we stand for? What has happened to the USA?
Last night I watched the Comedy Central Roasting of Joan Rivers. I haven't watched a "roast" in ages and thought this might be some fun. This show was the most disturbing, disgusting and racist show that I have EVER seen on tv. It was created of four letter words, making fun of Robin Quiver's being molested by her father as a young child, The most hideous jokes about parts of the body, and again making fun of Sarah Palin's daughter. "Joan River's has had more lifts than ____Palin's dress on prom night. My gosh... our country talks about Racism and bigotry, yet we allow comedians to talk like this?
Robin Quiver's laughed and laughed as they made fun of her color, sexuality, job, and any other racist remark that the comedians could come up with. I can't believe that this woman who was traumatized over her father molesting her as a child, was crucified about the situation by many of the comedians and giggled about it. How sad. How demented. So ever pervert who likes to hurt little children figure..."Oh yeah, this is fun and funny!" Lives are destroyed by children being sexually abused and many are our homeless, institutionalized, addicts and ruined for life. Oh yeah...this is so funny. What is wrong with these people? What is wrong with Robin Quivers?
Granted this is a roast, yet the amount of total disrespect for people, their looks, sexuality, and body parts was absolutely appalling.
Every filthy word imaginable was used in this show, and there was plenty of gory graphic sexual innuendo's --mostly from the freaky, squinty-eyed Gilbert Gottfried, who I guess is such a has-been that he needed attention and longer time on stage then he usually gets. Somebody please shoot the Afleck duck, in which Gottfried supplies the whiny voice. What a disgusting man he is. He isn't funny. He is just plan sick and perverted.
Carl Reiner-Shame on you! So you were able to say the C-word and the F-word...it was so exciting for you since the Dick Van Dyke show was censored on the word "pregnant" forty years ago. I miss those censorship days and shows as Dick Van Dyke. The writers were creative. Oh can you say the word C R E A T I V E?
The creativity of this Comedy Central show was from the brain of a Nat. Never was I a Kathy Griffen fan. As far as I am concerned she will always be on the D List. Her nasty foul mouth though seems to make her more popular than ever.
Yes, the naysayers can say that I could shut off my television or change the channel. Sure, I can always do that, but with cable bills being sky high, don't I have a right to say how I feel? I don't have HBO or Showtime...etc and would never have them. I am at the point now to cut off my cable all together because I rather read, or write or do something constructive then to watch people be paid huge amounts of money so they can curse profusely on television. Humor in Hollywood today is just plan...how can I say this delicately, GROSS.
Mario Cantone, is a well known gay comedian, but he was mild compared to the heterosexuals. The cracks that were made about him, even had him squirming at times.
Tom Arnold-Roseanne's user ex is still the same low life comedian as ever.
Jeffrey Ross-Was like a school kid in a locker room--constantly giggling at all the filth and almost falling out of his chair.
Greg Giraldo and Whitney Cummings--WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE AND WHAT PLANET DID THEY COME FROM?
Brad Garrett-From his famous "Everybody Loves Raymond" needs to go bury his head, because if anyone watched this show who loved Ray Romano's hit series will never watch a Brad Garrett show again, because he is nothing more than another disgusting rant. Oh yeah, I am no longer a fan.
I never was a fan of any of these comedians, except Joan Rivers. When she first came on stage years ago, she was absolutely hysterical. Now, she is just another over paid, loud-mouthed, foul comedian.
You can see this blatant sewage on www.ComedyCentral.com --People may say because I am a Christian that I am on the warpath, but you know it doesn't matter what religion a person is...FILTH IS FILTH. Plus, I am a not only a Christian but a mother, an American, and a person who values human life. I really miss the old comedians. They made me laugh and even gave hope. This bunch of perverts of Comedy Central demoralize Comedy and what it truly stands for. My gosh, is this the way our country is truly headed? Hollywood has absolutely no respect for children or values. I pray that Comedy Central is ripped from the grasps of cable television with other gross channels and tossed into hell where it belongs.
God bless America. We really need our prosperous country and good values back in our hearts. This is heartbreaking to see what is happening to our youth and our beliefs. Our soldiers are dying every day to up hold what we stand for...yet what DO we stand for? What has happened to the USA?
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Walking Dead
Today I really felt awful sick. I don't know what is wrong with me and neither do the doctors. I am having more blood tests on Monday and seeing another specialist. It's frustrating for sure. I keep getting fevers on and off. It's been like this for awhile. The fevers accur usually in the later afternoon. My energy level is nil, but that is to be expected with diabetes, asthma, fibromyalgia and thyroid problems. Wow, a walking medical journel! It is what is is and I don't give up easily. If there is some reason that God does decide to take me home soon, then I will be joyous. There will be missed family, friends and of course my two pets who I worry about.
Yes, this sounds kind of morbid today, but by gosh I feel lousy. I was supposed to help a friend on Sunday, but had to back out. I feel to weak to help anyone and can barely help me at this time.
Though, if I do die tonight or soon-My prayers would so be for my son Christopher, my mom, and my pets. My prayers also go out to the homeless and those who are suffereing and alone. I pray that every organization, every person who has an extra dollar lying around give something to the homeless or donate to Art4theHomeless. There is no excuse in this country for people to be hungry, homeless, and no health care. It never made sense to me. It's unexcusable that people have no food or shelter or health care. It is also unexcusable that our veterens of war are homeless and that a person can not recieve free brain disorder meds. It is a shame and truly boggles my mind.
My dream was to make a difference. It didn't have to be loud. It could be anonymous, just to know that people are being taken care of in the greatest country in the world.
I wish that i could feel better tonight, but I can't even go to a hospital er because it's hard to pin point what is going on. Anyway, regardless of what happens to me, now or in the future, I know that God has me in His arms. I am always safe.
Yes, this sounds kind of morbid today, but by gosh I feel lousy. I was supposed to help a friend on Sunday, but had to back out. I feel to weak to help anyone and can barely help me at this time.
Though, if I do die tonight or soon-My prayers would so be for my son Christopher, my mom, and my pets. My prayers also go out to the homeless and those who are suffereing and alone. I pray that every organization, every person who has an extra dollar lying around give something to the homeless or donate to Art4theHomeless. There is no excuse in this country for people to be hungry, homeless, and no health care. It never made sense to me. It's unexcusable that people have no food or shelter or health care. It is also unexcusable that our veterens of war are homeless and that a person can not recieve free brain disorder meds. It is a shame and truly boggles my mind.
My dream was to make a difference. It didn't have to be loud. It could be anonymous, just to know that people are being taken care of in the greatest country in the world.
I wish that i could feel better tonight, but I can't even go to a hospital er because it's hard to pin point what is going on. Anyway, regardless of what happens to me, now or in the future, I know that God has me in His arms. I am always safe.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
How I think
Copied from my nutang blog account
I thought and thought last night over my situation with my Pastor. She is an incredible person, yet I feel so confused. I prayed yesterday and still have no answer as to have done the wrong thing ref this homeless shelter situation.So this is what I don't understand:If we need to pray first about everything then why didn't we pray first before calling the shelter or deciding who to help? I feel that calling a homeless shelter and asking what they need is a commitment in itself. This particular shelter needs help and they are probably used to bogus calls or false promises. I told them when they advised what was needed that I would see what I can do, but you know my heart is very heavy right now. Good intentions mean nothing to me unless followed through. Our society is based on intentions yet people want to just have a feel good feeling, without the footwork. Unless i am ill or can not do something, I have to be honest in where I am or what I do. I was thinking about Jesus today. When He turned the water into wine or feed thousands did He think to Himself "Hmmmm, should i do this or not...maybe I should help another town instead of this one? Let me think about this? What would serve me better? I will maybe come back another time to this town?"Um, I don't think so. I feel that when Jesus saw a need, He had the Faith in His Father God to be able to help those in need. Prayer is very important to me. God knows that I am not perfect, but He knows my heart. Even being disabled and one second from losing my own home again, (the way the economy is - no one is safe) I still in my heart of hearts want to see children fed and a roof over their heads. I feel in the greatest country in the world there is no excuse for homelessness, poverty or people not being to eat proper food. My heart goes out to the elderly eating cat food to survive or people eating out of garbage cans. No child should be living on an empty stomach or not be able to be helped with medical needs. That's why I have so much respect for Johnna Crider (Art4thehomeless) and Pastor Estell's group SOS (Shedding our Silence). It took me so long to heal from abuse and find a home and healthy food to survive on. I don't have much, but I feel blessed with graditude. Faith, prayer and the ture love of Jesus, can open doors we never could see with our eyes. This is how I truly believe from my own experience, strength and hope. Thank you for allowing me to feel...believe and pray. Author,D'Maria
I thought and thought last night over my situation with my Pastor. She is an incredible person, yet I feel so confused. I prayed yesterday and still have no answer as to have done the wrong thing ref this homeless shelter situation.So this is what I don't understand:If we need to pray first about everything then why didn't we pray first before calling the shelter or deciding who to help? I feel that calling a homeless shelter and asking what they need is a commitment in itself. This particular shelter needs help and they are probably used to bogus calls or false promises. I told them when they advised what was needed that I would see what I can do, but you know my heart is very heavy right now. Good intentions mean nothing to me unless followed through. Our society is based on intentions yet people want to just have a feel good feeling, without the footwork. Unless i am ill or can not do something, I have to be honest in where I am or what I do. I was thinking about Jesus today. When He turned the water into wine or feed thousands did He think to Himself "Hmmmm, should i do this or not...maybe I should help another town instead of this one? Let me think about this? What would serve me better? I will maybe come back another time to this town?"Um, I don't think so. I feel that when Jesus saw a need, He had the Faith in His Father God to be able to help those in need. Prayer is very important to me. God knows that I am not perfect, but He knows my heart. Even being disabled and one second from losing my own home again, (the way the economy is - no one is safe) I still in my heart of hearts want to see children fed and a roof over their heads. I feel in the greatest country in the world there is no excuse for homelessness, poverty or people not being to eat proper food. My heart goes out to the elderly eating cat food to survive or people eating out of garbage cans. No child should be living on an empty stomach or not be able to be helped with medical needs. That's why I have so much respect for Johnna Crider (Art4thehomeless) and Pastor Estell's group SOS (Shedding our Silence). It took me so long to heal from abuse and find a home and healthy food to survive on. I don't have much, but I feel blessed with graditude. Faith, prayer and the ture love of Jesus, can open doors we never could see with our eyes. This is how I truly believe from my own experience, strength and hope. Thank you for allowing me to feel...believe and pray. Author,D'Maria
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Arrrgggghhhh
Oh my insane life. LOL. All of these dang health issues drive me bananas. One day it is one health problem and then next day another. I need to go scream somewhere.
Anyway, tossing those remarks aside...have to vent now and then...
My facebook is also kind of scewey. I can't seem to log in. Interesting. When it pours it rains or vicey versa.
It is so great to know that the two journelists in N. Korea were released. Oh that really did make my day, no matter now much pain one is in (or ill).
Johnna from Art4 the Homeless wants me to join this "nutang", but I am waiting for a code or something. Maybe I am too old. It's a cute site though.
I would love to invite some people to help it grow as well.
Tonight is my SOS group. Shedding our Silence. I love this group of dedicated women wanting to help themselves and others. Pastor Estell is incredible in this group. She is such a multitude of knowledge and grace.
Our group will help a homeless shelter soon. That would be so great. Hopefully, a newspaper article will be out soon that may even help Art4thehomeless. I am really excited about seeing organizations grow that help and care about others who are less fortunate.
Well, I have a cazillion things to do.
Have to run.
Anyway, tossing those remarks aside...have to vent now and then...
My facebook is also kind of scewey. I can't seem to log in. Interesting. When it pours it rains or vicey versa.
It is so great to know that the two journelists in N. Korea were released. Oh that really did make my day, no matter now much pain one is in (or ill).
Johnna from Art4 the Homeless wants me to join this "nutang", but I am waiting for a code or something. Maybe I am too old. It's a cute site though.
I would love to invite some people to help it grow as well.
Tonight is my SOS group. Shedding our Silence. I love this group of dedicated women wanting to help themselves and others. Pastor Estell is incredible in this group. She is such a multitude of knowledge and grace.
Our group will help a homeless shelter soon. That would be so great. Hopefully, a newspaper article will be out soon that may even help Art4thehomeless. I am really excited about seeing organizations grow that help and care about others who are less fortunate.
Well, I have a cazillion things to do.
Have to run.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
More To Love And Dance Your A-- Off
I started to watch the show Dance Your A-- Off on Oxygen. I felt at first that the show was pretty good. Overweight people learning to eat healthy, excercise and dance a routine. It is a great incenitive. I just felt so sad when people had to go home. I know that they will probably go home and binge. I would. Being built up with an eating disorder and then crashing...oh my gosh...it must hurt. I wish people didn't go home, but would still be able to work out and lose the weight. Maybe they don't win the 100 thou but hey, it's more important to be healthy.
Last night I watched More to Love. It was one of those bachelor reality shows when a man choses a marriage partner out of 20 eager women. Most times the women are slim and gorgeous, yet on this particular FOX show the women as the Bachelor are all obese. At first I was happy about the show, because it was nice to see women who were heavier get a chance a love. The sad part is many have never dated before and looked so devastated as to who the bachelor would pick. Oh my gosh, what pain on their faces. The crying of feeling that no one loved them. When I was younger I was much thinner than I am now, yet I was about 10-20 lbs overweight. When I married I was a size 7. My husband though told me that if I gained weight that he would divorce me. After I had my son, I had gained 30 lbs. My husband had already found someone much thinner and younger. Unbelievable what a creep he was. I ended up of course a single parent.
It's a shame how our society worships body image more than a persons heart. Anyway being older, I am much happier at who I am. My heart though goes out to these women (or men) that suffer from low self esteem because people are so cruel.
Even as an author, another author used to go around the internet called me Mrs. Cow on her blogs etc. She was no slim babe either, but I guess it made her feel better. She hates fat people and makes it quite clear online that she does. What sad, sick people.
Just know that God loves all of his children. With that in mind, I could care less what any sick person thinks of me. I am blessed. So are all of these other people who suffer from being different then societies beliefs.
Oh well, have to go.
Hugs,
D'Maria
Last night I watched More to Love. It was one of those bachelor reality shows when a man choses a marriage partner out of 20 eager women. Most times the women are slim and gorgeous, yet on this particular FOX show the women as the Bachelor are all obese. At first I was happy about the show, because it was nice to see women who were heavier get a chance a love. The sad part is many have never dated before and looked so devastated as to who the bachelor would pick. Oh my gosh, what pain on their faces. The crying of feeling that no one loved them. When I was younger I was much thinner than I am now, yet I was about 10-20 lbs overweight. When I married I was a size 7. My husband though told me that if I gained weight that he would divorce me. After I had my son, I had gained 30 lbs. My husband had already found someone much thinner and younger. Unbelievable what a creep he was. I ended up of course a single parent.
It's a shame how our society worships body image more than a persons heart. Anyway being older, I am much happier at who I am. My heart though goes out to these women (or men) that suffer from low self esteem because people are so cruel.
Even as an author, another author used to go around the internet called me Mrs. Cow on her blogs etc. She was no slim babe either, but I guess it made her feel better. She hates fat people and makes it quite clear online that she does. What sad, sick people.
Just know that God loves all of his children. With that in mind, I could care less what any sick person thinks of me. I am blessed. So are all of these other people who suffer from being different then societies beliefs.
Oh well, have to go.
Hugs,
D'Maria
Sunday, July 5, 2009
I love twitter!
I have been such a bad little blogging author. LOL. It's been weeks since being here. Sheez. It's been really busy though. My mom had been in the hospital and I was also AGAIN under doctors care. Today though I feel great. Absolutely fantastical. On my birthday yesterday (July 4) I went to a church outreach. It was really hot and my stay was only for about 3 hours, but for me that is a huge miracle. I thought today, I would be in bed all day, but it's a wonderful day.
I love twitter. It has been such a joy meeting new author's there, plus many of my friends are on there as well. Meeting new friends is also a joy. It's such a fun experience.
Today, I will take a nap and then get back on my book. I found an editor that is reasonable to catch the mistakes. Very cool.
God is so good to me, even with the hills, mountains to climb and sometimes feeling as though I am swimming in a tidal wave...God is good.
I love twitter. It has been such a joy meeting new author's there, plus many of my friends are on there as well. Meeting new friends is also a joy. It's such a fun experience.
Today, I will take a nap and then get back on my book. I found an editor that is reasonable to catch the mistakes. Very cool.
God is so good to me, even with the hills, mountains to climb and sometimes feeling as though I am swimming in a tidal wave...God is good.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Time Flies
It's been a while since I have been here last. I can't believe it's actually been a few days. Today was one of my bad fibro days and felt as though someone hit me with a bat. Hours went by before I could actually do anything truly funtional. It took forever to feed my two friends this morning, yet they were understanding. As long as I moved, even in slow motion, they were happy. Well, just thought to stop by before crawling into bed. Literally...LOL
Friday, June 12, 2009
The Dyslexia Element
Ever since I had a head injury in 1984, I have suffered from dyslexia. It kind of kept me out of finishing my college degree and other aspects that I wanted to do. It's okay though, I feel much of the problem has been healed today and even though illness seems to enjoy sneaking up on me, I never give up. Some days when I write my books, it's a mess of jumble or ass-backwards--lol-but I feel that everything happens for a reason. Maybe having all of these problems helps me to work harder and not be lazy.
Even though, my best days may not be another person's best day, there is so much gratitude if I even get a page done. The most problem is the editing of a book and between the fibromyalgia fog and dyslexia, it can be quite a game. LOL.
Even though the pain can be excruciating and my mind spaghetti, I still feel that God guides me to get through the day. Many have it worse than me. I know this. Some of my most wonderful friends have passed away, and I always felt that they had so much more to live for than I did. In my heart of hearts though, I know that there is a reason for my existance. There is a reason why I even have to deal with this stuff every day.
Living with an attitude of gratitude truly helps. Being clean and sober for one thing (for almost 22 years) has been a true blessing and miracle as well. After my head injury silencing the depression-I felt as though drinking would help. Well, it didn't. So I quit drinking for my son, because at the time, I couldn't do it for myself.
So okay, today life is harder than some people have it, yet I know that Jesus is on my side and that I am accomplishing good-one day at a time.
There are days I really have to pray to write and ask for help when the dyslexia is harder than other times. Even if I write for 15 minutes, then there is a huge feeling of accomplishment.
God is good. I need to remember this every moment of every day, and not allow naysayers to live in my head.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Woke Up Depressed
This morning I woke up feeling really down and angry with the world. It must of somehow been a bad night, so I decided to go for a power walk, pray and felt much better. I hugged my animals and fed them too and thought about weeding the garden, only it's quite hot right now. So I am here. LOL. The power walk really helped. Even though, illness has been something that I deal with on a daily basis, I am finding out that excercise and healthier eating (not a perfect science for me, mind you), has helped. So everything that I do is based on one day at a time.
I need to clean today...LOL, but instead I will probably work on my book. Cleaning can wait. Creativity is always first...well except for my 4 legged kids.
I need to clean today...LOL, but instead I will probably work on my book. Cleaning can wait. Creativity is always first...well except for my 4 legged kids.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Do You Throw Away Miracles?
People never cease to amaze me. I am firm believer in Faith, angels, Jesus (#1) and miracles. I have been obsessing lately over my neighbor. Not that he interests me, because he is a mess, but he has this tendency to make deals with God. I don't believe in making deals with God. One needs to be careful what they wish for, no matter what/who they believe. Whether one believes in God or not (which I do), the Universes power is much stronger than we can ever imagine. For me I believe that God's power is stronger than ever imagined. For me I need to make this about the Lord, but people have the choice to believe in whatever they chose.
The bottom line is this man has been healed of the disease and I am grateful that God has helped him. What hurts is to see how this man's behavior has changed. I wish I could say it's for the best, but he has been doing some really nasty things. He is into porn and looking for threesomes, he is on Craig's List looking for sex. What is so sad is that he has a young daughter who lives with him. It just hurts my soul to see this kind of behaviour when a miracle is given. People forget to get down on thier knees.
He also has been very cruel to me, with his new found miracle. I am just a joke to him. We were I thought friends, but he has been really rude and inappropiate to me. We are NOT involved in any way. We are next door neighbors. I never was into him any more than a fellow soul caring for another, and my heart went out to his 12 year old daughter, because she has some problems and is so unhappy. Rarely did we speak except to say "Hello" on my way out to the car or to walk my dog, yet around the Holidays he spoke of depression and killing himself often. He would just have his head down and sit outside smoking. This went on for a couple of weeks...every time I saw him...so as a nieghbor and fellow being, I knew that something needed to be done to help this man. So, I called a counselor friend and they spoke to him and between us both, he went to a doctor for medication (counseling?) and for a few months, my friend and I would have him and his daughter over for dinner or coffee (at my place) to see how he was. He started to do much better and it was noticable that this disease that he had (which was a immune disorder) was doing much, much better.
I have had to just pray and put them into God's hands. It's not my place to interfere or even say anything. Do I feel anger? Yes, and that too, I need to turn over to the Lord. Oh, I am not angry for me...the anger comes from seeing what incredible gifts the Lord gives and how people just toss him aside when they are well.
Sure we forget at times what God does for us. We are human/falible. It's just that no matter what and what I am going through-whether God gives me the time or day or if he is too busy--i know in my heart that I need to keep my morals and values intact, and that I abide by the Bible and 10 Commandments. I am grateful that I don't use people, even though because of my nature, unfortunately, I have been stomped on. It hurts for a while but i know in my heart that God is in control, not me. All we can do is reach out and hope others will go to a place of worship.
I am grateful to know that God loves me--even with my faults. It just saddens me when people go out of their way to hurt or use others, especially when they use the Lord as a wolve would in sheep's clothing.
Thank you God for the lessons that I have learned in life and for allowing me to be a better person. Everyone else, I just pray for or lay in the Lord's hands. There is nothing more to be done, then the be an example of what Christ would do.
Blessings.
The bottom line is this man has been healed of the disease and I am grateful that God has helped him. What hurts is to see how this man's behavior has changed. I wish I could say it's for the best, but he has been doing some really nasty things. He is into porn and looking for threesomes, he is on Craig's List looking for sex. What is so sad is that he has a young daughter who lives with him. It just hurts my soul to see this kind of behaviour when a miracle is given. People forget to get down on thier knees.
He also has been very cruel to me, with his new found miracle. I am just a joke to him. We were I thought friends, but he has been really rude and inappropiate to me. We are NOT involved in any way. We are next door neighbors. I never was into him any more than a fellow soul caring for another, and my heart went out to his 12 year old daughter, because she has some problems and is so unhappy. Rarely did we speak except to say "Hello" on my way out to the car or to walk my dog, yet around the Holidays he spoke of depression and killing himself often. He would just have his head down and sit outside smoking. This went on for a couple of weeks...every time I saw him...so as a nieghbor and fellow being, I knew that something needed to be done to help this man. So, I called a counselor friend and they spoke to him and between us both, he went to a doctor for medication (counseling?) and for a few months, my friend and I would have him and his daughter over for dinner or coffee (at my place) to see how he was. He started to do much better and it was noticable that this disease that he had (which was a immune disorder) was doing much, much better.
I have had to just pray and put them into God's hands. It's not my place to interfere or even say anything. Do I feel anger? Yes, and that too, I need to turn over to the Lord. Oh, I am not angry for me...the anger comes from seeing what incredible gifts the Lord gives and how people just toss him aside when they are well.
Sure we forget at times what God does for us. We are human/falible. It's just that no matter what and what I am going through-whether God gives me the time or day or if he is too busy--i know in my heart that I need to keep my morals and values intact, and that I abide by the Bible and 10 Commandments. I am grateful that I don't use people, even though because of my nature, unfortunately, I have been stomped on. It hurts for a while but i know in my heart that God is in control, not me. All we can do is reach out and hope others will go to a place of worship.
I am grateful to know that God loves me--even with my faults. It just saddens me when people go out of their way to hurt or use others, especially when they use the Lord as a wolve would in sheep's clothing.
Thank you God for the lessons that I have learned in life and for allowing me to be a better person. Everyone else, I just pray for or lay in the Lord's hands. There is nothing more to be done, then the be an example of what Christ would do.
Blessings.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
The Movie "Honey"
My gosh I couldn't believe that great movie that I saw on MTV tonight. That's right, old broad watched an MTV movie. The movie was "Honey" with Jessica Alba. This was a great movie for teens. It was about hip hop dancing. Did I just say that? Yupper, but I have to tell you the storyline was great and Jessica Alba was awesome. Just had to write this. Thanks MTV for putting something DECENT on for the teens, and us old farts too!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Oh To Be Young and Beautiful Again-LOL!
Today was one of my better days. There wasn't as much pain and even though I had to go to the doctor, I feel kind of giddy and just want to be joyful and have been most of the day. Oh the title of this blog...lol...it's funny because if one wants attention today online (twitter for ex:) I notice that all of the super gorgeous people get the followers and the write backs. That's okay. I have a few friends that talk to me and that is cool.
I am just feeling like skipping today. LOL. Though I probably can't get off the ground!
My sunflowers are just gorgeous and my plants are blooming (I guess that's how God feels when he sees all of the beauty in the Universe that He created).
Anyway, it's been a good day, and I will keep it at that. Tomorrow I have some medical tests and I feel great about them.
So life is just full of joy and blessed!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Love, Honor and Loyalty and the F-word
When I was growing up a young lass, we were taught respect, love, honor, loyalty and other important values in life. I am wondering what happened to those incredible values and morals the older I become. Joy Behar on the television show "The View" yesterday was talking about the F word and how it would be fine if kids used it. "It is only a word," she blurted. She was a school teacher? This is the SAME celeb who was appalled at the use of the N-word. Both of those words are just as damaging and disgusting for any one to use.
Do the celebs feel that they can say anything just to get attention and to hell with all that watch the show? Of course the F word is just a word, but what it means is pretty disgusting. So disgusting in fact, that our society feels that they can just live in the F-Word without any feelings or respect for another human being. This is scary, especially for the younger generation who live on computers and are stuck in a world of greed, and life that has a race with destiny.
Men and women, have really no true love for each other any more as the word love is an alien word from another plantet. When two people do commit to love each other, oh my gosh, life feels as though there may be hope: yet greed has sunk many a marriage.
The greed of conquest: Whether financial or lust has me very sad when I look at the human condition. It also makes me wonder what happened to the Bible and one's love of Jesus and those who say that they are Christian yet spend their days on Sex Internet Sites.
Every day teachers, firemen, politicians, law enforcement officers, Service People, and other high quality jobs are being arrested for hurting a child or being arrested for child pornography. This just boggles my mind.
Where are we going? What is happening to our children? How come we allow celebrities to run our lives and tell us what is okay and not okay?
My heart aches.
Do the celebs feel that they can say anything just to get attention and to hell with all that watch the show? Of course the F word is just a word, but what it means is pretty disgusting. So disgusting in fact, that our society feels that they can just live in the F-Word without any feelings or respect for another human being. This is scary, especially for the younger generation who live on computers and are stuck in a world of greed, and life that has a race with destiny.
Men and women, have really no true love for each other any more as the word love is an alien word from another plantet. When two people do commit to love each other, oh my gosh, life feels as though there may be hope: yet greed has sunk many a marriage.
The greed of conquest: Whether financial or lust has me very sad when I look at the human condition. It also makes me wonder what happened to the Bible and one's love of Jesus and those who say that they are Christian yet spend their days on Sex Internet Sites.
Every day teachers, firemen, politicians, law enforcement officers, Service People, and other high quality jobs are being arrested for hurting a child or being arrested for child pornography. This just boggles my mind.
Where are we going? What is happening to our children? How come we allow celebrities to run our lives and tell us what is okay and not okay?
My heart aches.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Beautiful Days
The last few days have been terrific. The weather is just as fresh as a sunflower. Speaking of which some of mine are about 7 feet tall. I love going outside to look at them and watch the ladybugs. I do have to pick off beetles and put them in insecticidal soap, but oh well, they make a mess of my flowers. Hungry boogers. Yesterday, I even wrote. Yay! The medication for my lungs is working and I am sleeping a tad better too. It's unbelievable the difference that is felt.
My other plants are growing slow. I do have about 4 tomatoes taking form, yet my eggplants and peppers are growing at snail speed. There are many herbs this year too and I love to watch God's work grow from seed. It is such a miracle.
Anyway, I am off to twitter to see what is going on. Oh what an addiction.
I love my garden! I feel energized today!
My other plants are growing slow. I do have about 4 tomatoes taking form, yet my eggplants and peppers are growing at snail speed. There are many herbs this year too and I love to watch God's work grow from seed. It is such a miracle.
Anyway, I am off to twitter to see what is going on. Oh what an addiction.
I love my garden! I feel energized today!
Friday, May 29, 2009
Another Day At the Doctors
Oh wow. Hopefully soon, I will get a repreive from seeing all of these docs. It's just that there are things that they are monitoring such as breathing maching and some new meds. I just started Advair to breath better and it does help my asthma, but makes me a tad anxious (like I need anxious). I haven't gone to the gym all week, but will be back next week. I don't have another doc appt until later in June. Yippee! Freedom! I just have a mamogram next week and am not worried about that...just a routine yearly thingy.
I am feeling better since the addicts and squatters left the next door apartment. That situation- for months- truly affected my health. What a sad mess.
When I was in my 20's I had dreams of being married and having kids, the home, all of that. Today young people (not all) are looking for ways to test the system or steal whatever they can.
Everyone here is breathing easier. It's quiet and we are all getting along with our business and people are actually smiling again.
Summer is coming upon us (and the Florida Hurricane Season). Even though the stress of the squatters affected my health some, I am feeling better. Life happens and we all learn lessons...well most of us do. Some people all we can do is pray for.
I was reading my book today in the doctor's office "A Unique Bunny", I am really proud of that sweet book. It's great for adults and children. Getting revved up again to finish this new book.
Life is good today. The sun is shining.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
No sleep Last Night
You know the song when they sing "Oh what a night," of course it has a whole different meaning than my "Oh what a night", last night. No sleep for me. I contacted the Sleep Apnea Foundation, and told them I was having such a hard time with this machine and mask. I just wanted to die. Sleep is as rare to me any more as money. OMG. Tired of all of this crap. I need a miracle. Always been so healthy and active. Arrrgggghhhh.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Oh Where Art Thou Today?
Today flew by. After getting up very early to go to a doctor's appointment, which didn't go as planned...I wanted to get OFF some meds, but he explained no and why. He also wanted to put me on more meds...which I said NO to and why. Anyway, I went to the grocery store looking for my favorite fix which is Roadrunner Raspberry Frozen Yogurt (Made by Publix Supermarkets) and they were out. I settled for a 3 Muskateers. Not as smooth or yummy. After I ate lunch, I crashed and slept for about 3 hours (again). I went outside to do some gardening (more like using insecticide to get rid of beetles on my Sunflowers and Miracle Plant). Really hot out and decided to come back in and read emails, twitter and then ATTEMPT to write. Really feeling exhausted--will go to gym in AM.
Right now finishing up today...doing what needs to be done.
Oh why I love Publix's Roadrunner, Raspberry Yogurt--It's not that expensive about $3.64 half gallon. Made w/white choc yogurt, dark choc little raspberry cups and a raspberry swirl. It's my favorite and hard to find. I need to tell my local store to GET MORE!! They were out again today. My secret is out. LOL.
Have a great day...now evening...I guess.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Something to Remember (For Self too!)
http://www.lshs64.com/enjoytheride.html This really helped me this morning. Hope it will make another's day as well.
Good Intentions
I really don't like good intentions. As a matter of fact a STRONG Dislike comes to mind. Often if they are set up by me. In other words being ill, I have many times had so many good intentions to do something and then I couldn't follow through. I know that there have been disapointments to people that I really care about, when I have said that I would show up or do something and couldn't make it..
Even yesterday, I attempted to write about 5 times and my brain just wouldn't work. Morning, noon and night were attempted...but the words were just crap. So notes were jotted down for the time being and hopefully they will work out better today. Dealing with illness sucks. Sometimes, I just wish that I would never wake up. There is so much creativity going on in my head and it's as though I am trying to squeeze out toothpaste through a pinhole.
One thing that does help is that I pray ALOT. I always ask Jesus to help me write...even if it is just for a little while.
"Please God keep my mind clear for creative thought and my body from severe pain.
Please help me to write in your will Dear Lord and to be able to make sense on days that I can't even focus or remember what to eat. Please help me to forgive and pray for those who are upset with me for my faults or illness. Dearest Jesus, help me to hold on to you, because I know that you will never abandon me. Thank you for being there. Without You Lord I am nothing." AMEN.
Now for some errands to run...and then rest...and hopefully back to the book.
xo
Even yesterday, I attempted to write about 5 times and my brain just wouldn't work. Morning, noon and night were attempted...but the words were just crap. So notes were jotted down for the time being and hopefully they will work out better today. Dealing with illness sucks. Sometimes, I just wish that I would never wake up. There is so much creativity going on in my head and it's as though I am trying to squeeze out toothpaste through a pinhole.
One thing that does help is that I pray ALOT. I always ask Jesus to help me write...even if it is just for a little while.
"Please God keep my mind clear for creative thought and my body from severe pain.
Please help me to write in your will Dear Lord and to be able to make sense on days that I can't even focus or remember what to eat. Please help me to forgive and pray for those who are upset with me for my faults or illness. Dearest Jesus, help me to hold on to you, because I know that you will never abandon me. Thank you for being there. Without You Lord I am nothing." AMEN.
Now for some errands to run...and then rest...and hopefully back to the book.
xo
Monday, May 25, 2009
A Blessed Memoria Day
There are three generations of servicemen in my family. I wish I could go to see my father's grave in the Vet Cemetary. I will say a special prayer for him. It is beautiful out and I may go to a church picnic today. God bless the USA.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
A Good Day
Today has been one of my better days in months. The pain isn't as intense as usual and I have been actually functional the whole day! Usually, there is a nap during the day, yet I am just full of energy. Days as this, oh my gosh, they are so embraced. I really have been enjoying Twitter. I find this great fun, even though I still love My Space, Facebook and Shoutlife. There are many others that I belong to...but my gosh...so much time spent...that I could use to write. Those sites make awesome breaks though in the day, when I get too into a book or just need to relax. This blog site is also wonderful to help relax.
There are so many neat things that I want to share with the friends about my life...my organizations...my feelings. Too bad, my other blog disapeared, but I guess that there is a reason for everything. Well, back to my book. TTFN Blessings, D'Maria
There are so many neat things that I want to share with the friends about my life...my organizations...my feelings. Too bad, my other blog disapeared, but I guess that there is a reason for everything. Well, back to my book. TTFN Blessings, D'Maria
Ahhhhh
Finally, the neighborhood has been quiet and everyone has settled and I can relax (well...LOL) and write again. It's a shame that there are some really messed up people out there. Even sadder that these were young people who have so much in life that they could give. Instead they live in a world of drugs, greed, and criminal behavior. Hopefully, this will be over now. It's been a good week, except the stress has me under doctors care more than usual.
I had always been a healthy person most of my life. I loved to play volley ball, softball and swim at one time. First though there was a head injury at a job (when I worked in Law Enforcement) that caused years of problems. At that time, I still worked but depression and pain started to set in. I ended up quitting the job in LE when actually, I should have taken a leave of absense to heal. I honestly don't know what I was thinking-there was probably guilt for taking so much time off.
Then I moved into this apartment which was "environmentally unsafe". I had no idea of this when I moved in and became very, very ill. The doctors had no idea what was wrong with me so they just decided to tell me that I would not probably live very long. I must have fired 7 doctors in two years. They either tried to overdose me with drugs, or tell me there was no hope. Finally, when the health department told me that my apartment was unsafe, I was too sick to work anymore.
Oh I tried to sue the creepy landlords at the time of all this, but they were cazillionaires and caused so many problems. There was enough proof to kill a bull, yet my attorney for some strange reason ended the case 2 days before Christmas in the year 2001. It was a devastating blow, especially since I could no longer work and had all kinds of lung, problems and other health issues which were so escalated.
I decided to just attempt to heal and painted and wrote. That was my inner joy since childhood and so since I could take my time, the focus was on just creating. I have about 7 illnesses from living in that "sick" apartment so it hasn't been easy. If it isn't one thing it's another. Plus, I never smoked and it is frustrating to have asthma and other resporitory problems.
Basically, I am a pretty happy person. Unusual for a person who has had so much hardship in life, yet I have a deep faith in God and believe that there is a reason for everything. I don't feel sorry for myself. In fact many people have no clue how ill I am and I just go on about my business. Complaining is for wimps, anyway.
There are bouts of horrible depression sometimes, but I work through it. I love to garden, go to the gym, write, paint, swim(oh I miss so much), and hangout with good friends. I have also given up alcohol 22 years ago. My biggest vice is that I eat emotionally sometimes. It is something that I am working on.
I also love my mom, son, friends and my cat Ronzoni and my dog Beautiful Dreamer.
Well, Enough for now. It's time to get some "Beauty Sleep".
I had always been a healthy person most of my life. I loved to play volley ball, softball and swim at one time. First though there was a head injury at a job (when I worked in Law Enforcement) that caused years of problems. At that time, I still worked but depression and pain started to set in. I ended up quitting the job in LE when actually, I should have taken a leave of absense to heal. I honestly don't know what I was thinking-there was probably guilt for taking so much time off.
Then I moved into this apartment which was "environmentally unsafe". I had no idea of this when I moved in and became very, very ill. The doctors had no idea what was wrong with me so they just decided to tell me that I would not probably live very long. I must have fired 7 doctors in two years. They either tried to overdose me with drugs, or tell me there was no hope. Finally, when the health department told me that my apartment was unsafe, I was too sick to work anymore.
Oh I tried to sue the creepy landlords at the time of all this, but they were cazillionaires and caused so many problems. There was enough proof to kill a bull, yet my attorney for some strange reason ended the case 2 days before Christmas in the year 2001. It was a devastating blow, especially since I could no longer work and had all kinds of lung, problems and other health issues which were so escalated.
I decided to just attempt to heal and painted and wrote. That was my inner joy since childhood and so since I could take my time, the focus was on just creating. I have about 7 illnesses from living in that "sick" apartment so it hasn't been easy. If it isn't one thing it's another. Plus, I never smoked and it is frustrating to have asthma and other resporitory problems.
Basically, I am a pretty happy person. Unusual for a person who has had so much hardship in life, yet I have a deep faith in God and believe that there is a reason for everything. I don't feel sorry for myself. In fact many people have no clue how ill I am and I just go on about my business. Complaining is for wimps, anyway.
There are bouts of horrible depression sometimes, but I work through it. I love to garden, go to the gym, write, paint, swim(oh I miss so much), and hangout with good friends. I have also given up alcohol 22 years ago. My biggest vice is that I eat emotionally sometimes. It is something that I am working on.
I also love my mom, son, friends and my cat Ronzoni and my dog Beautiful Dreamer.
Well, Enough for now. It's time to get some "Beauty Sleep".
Friday, May 22, 2009
My Neighbor
Over a year ago a man about my age moved in with his 11 year old daughter. I pretty much keep to myself here (I have been here for about 10 years). We would always say "Hi" in passing and the little girl would sometimes tell me about school or what she likes to do, if I were outside.
Once when she had her appendix removed I gave her one of my children's books to read. Later, I find out that likes the blood and guts kind of stories. Oh well. My books are simple Christian based. She is a sweet kid though, and hopefully she will grow out of the gorier stuff.
Anyway, before the holidays, I noticed at times the father would sit outside with his head down. Not being any of my business I would just say "Hi" and not get involved in too much conversation. After Thanksgiving, I noticed that he was always outside smoking and just very depressed, so I asked him if he was okay and he just said that he wanted to die. This "wanting to die" went on for a few weeks and I became worried, especially since he started giving some of his favorite things away to his daughter. Thinking of the child first, I decided to see if there was a way that I could talk him into getting some help. He was very angry about a situation (health) and couldn't seem to shake his feelings. Having a friend that is a counselor I asked him if he would talk to her. He said "yes" and so one night he came over to my place and I went to his hometo watch his little girl as he spoke to my counselor friend.
My friend and I kept an eye on them and we would have dinner or coffee at my home for all of us after the first meeting with my friend. It was a really nice family atmosphere and he finally went to a doctor to get some meds and I believe there was some therapy as well. The meetings at my place every few weeks actually did us all good. The little girl looked forward to coming over too.
Life started getting better for my neighbor. He had been divorced two years and was looking for someone. I was really happy for him. The thing is he was going to Craig's List and looking for young women (of age in their 20's) to date. Okay, different strokes for different folks, I know--he just seemed kind of oversexed to me. That's all he started to talk about if he came over to borrow something (coffee, milk, sugar, stamps, help with his computer) It was almost an every day thing and he started to sound kind of inapropriate. So I backed off. He is taking meds for depression and drinking which really makes me uncomfortable too.
I told him about another FREE dating site online that was pretty good and they had local gatherings etc. I mentioned that a picnic was coming up and seemed very interested and signed up. He even mentioned just going to the picnic together.
When the day came by for the picnic, I actually forgot about it. That Saturday morning he was acting strange and when I was walking my dog, he came out him home to say he was again having problems with his computer. I asked some questions and offered to see the problem, but he said that he had to go out with his daughter. What he didn't want me to see or know was that he was going to the picnic and didn't want me to know. This came to my attention later that day when I went to the site to see what was going on and remembered the picnic--too late. Later that evening when I was walking my dog, he came out of his home to tell me that he went to the picnic and how nice everyone was, and bragged about what a great time him and his young daughter had. Funny, it didn't surprize me.
I am not jealous or interested in this guy. It just perplexed me that after all of the times I have given him and his daughter food, and dinners and my time when the door was knocked on because he was so depressed, that he could of at least mentioned it to me. He was AFRAID that he would have to take me. Even though I am disabled, I could have driven myself. It really put me into a deep depression. I have known this group for about a year-I would have loved to have gone to the picnic (they usaully have night time outings and I don't/can't drive at night). It would have been nice to have met them. As mentioned earlier this guy isn't my type. He brags about having threesomes and how hot he is lately. It's a real turn off for me and I am not into that stuff. I was only a friend (or neighbor) concerned about his depression and especially for his child who I knew was having a tough time in school and was in therapy. All I did was be a good neighbor, but boy was he slamming me lately.
Please be advised, that I am usually a very UP person. My blogs are normally happy and talk about what I do. Lately, though life has been kind of overwhelming, and this helps me to vent some when I am hurting so deeply when I see how people treat others or their children.
I hope that my neighbor finds what he is looking for. He still knocks on my door needing coffee or asking if the squatters have left. Today when resting there was knocking on my door and I just didn't bother or care who was there.
Being the caretaker in my family, I have always enjoyed seeing others succeed or be happy. I never looked at expectations or if someone owed me something. It just hurts when people NEED me and then are ashamed to know me around others. So I am not a twenty something any more. I am not beautiful and have to deal with illness. I still pray for others, keep a possitive attitude and ask God to help those that can not help themself.
Nor do I request pity or for someone to be my friend. It is just irratating when people lie to me or attempt to make believe they care, when all they want is their needs fulfilled and to hell with another's feelings. Any way it feel s good to be able to write about this. It has been really bothering me for months...With the squatters and my best friend once again stabbing me in the back, it a blessing that there is a blog to write in.
It's really a shame that there are so many sick individuals out there who take whatever they can and just find another victim. I am a very strong person and feel blessed that I am not like any of these sad people. I do have feelings though and it does help to write about them.
Now I can get on with my upbeat posts about my writing and life. I can't wait for the GOOD stuff to get out here!
Once when she had her appendix removed I gave her one of my children's books to read. Later, I find out that likes the blood and guts kind of stories. Oh well. My books are simple Christian based. She is a sweet kid though, and hopefully she will grow out of the gorier stuff.
Anyway, before the holidays, I noticed at times the father would sit outside with his head down. Not being any of my business I would just say "Hi" and not get involved in too much conversation. After Thanksgiving, I noticed that he was always outside smoking and just very depressed, so I asked him if he was okay and he just said that he wanted to die. This "wanting to die" went on for a few weeks and I became worried, especially since he started giving some of his favorite things away to his daughter. Thinking of the child first, I decided to see if there was a way that I could talk him into getting some help. He was very angry about a situation (health) and couldn't seem to shake his feelings. Having a friend that is a counselor I asked him if he would talk to her. He said "yes" and so one night he came over to my place and I went to his hometo watch his little girl as he spoke to my counselor friend.
My friend and I kept an eye on them and we would have dinner or coffee at my home for all of us after the first meeting with my friend. It was a really nice family atmosphere and he finally went to a doctor to get some meds and I believe there was some therapy as well. The meetings at my place every few weeks actually did us all good. The little girl looked forward to coming over too.
Life started getting better for my neighbor. He had been divorced two years and was looking for someone. I was really happy for him. The thing is he was going to Craig's List and looking for young women (of age in their 20's) to date. Okay, different strokes for different folks, I know--he just seemed kind of oversexed to me. That's all he started to talk about if he came over to borrow something (coffee, milk, sugar, stamps, help with his computer) It was almost an every day thing and he started to sound kind of inapropriate. So I backed off. He is taking meds for depression and drinking which really makes me uncomfortable too.
I told him about another FREE dating site online that was pretty good and they had local gatherings etc. I mentioned that a picnic was coming up and seemed very interested and signed up. He even mentioned just going to the picnic together.
When the day came by for the picnic, I actually forgot about it. That Saturday morning he was acting strange and when I was walking my dog, he came out him home to say he was again having problems with his computer. I asked some questions and offered to see the problem, but he said that he had to go out with his daughter. What he didn't want me to see or know was that he was going to the picnic and didn't want me to know. This came to my attention later that day when I went to the site to see what was going on and remembered the picnic--too late. Later that evening when I was walking my dog, he came out of his home to tell me that he went to the picnic and how nice everyone was, and bragged about what a great time him and his young daughter had. Funny, it didn't surprize me.
I am not jealous or interested in this guy. It just perplexed me that after all of the times I have given him and his daughter food, and dinners and my time when the door was knocked on because he was so depressed, that he could of at least mentioned it to me. He was AFRAID that he would have to take me. Even though I am disabled, I could have driven myself. It really put me into a deep depression. I have known this group for about a year-I would have loved to have gone to the picnic (they usaully have night time outings and I don't/can't drive at night). It would have been nice to have met them. As mentioned earlier this guy isn't my type. He brags about having threesomes and how hot he is lately. It's a real turn off for me and I am not into that stuff. I was only a friend (or neighbor) concerned about his depression and especially for his child who I knew was having a tough time in school and was in therapy. All I did was be a good neighbor, but boy was he slamming me lately.
Please be advised, that I am usually a very UP person. My blogs are normally happy and talk about what I do. Lately, though life has been kind of overwhelming, and this helps me to vent some when I am hurting so deeply when I see how people treat others or their children.
I hope that my neighbor finds what he is looking for. He still knocks on my door needing coffee or asking if the squatters have left. Today when resting there was knocking on my door and I just didn't bother or care who was there.
Being the caretaker in my family, I have always enjoyed seeing others succeed or be happy. I never looked at expectations or if someone owed me something. It just hurts when people NEED me and then are ashamed to know me around others. So I am not a twenty something any more. I am not beautiful and have to deal with illness. I still pray for others, keep a possitive attitude and ask God to help those that can not help themself.
Nor do I request pity or for someone to be my friend. It is just irratating when people lie to me or attempt to make believe they care, when all they want is their needs fulfilled and to hell with another's feelings. Any way it feel s good to be able to write about this. It has been really bothering me for months...With the squatters and my best friend once again stabbing me in the back, it a blessing that there is a blog to write in.
It's really a shame that there are so many sick individuals out there who take whatever they can and just find another victim. I am a very strong person and feel blessed that I am not like any of these sad people. I do have feelings though and it does help to write about them.
Now I can get on with my upbeat posts about my writing and life. I can't wait for the GOOD stuff to get out here!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Squatters
I really don't get this. The laws in the State of Florida really suck. MONTHS ago an agency put some people in our apartment complex. There are only 4 triplexes on our court so there aren't a whole bunch of us. Being here 10 years people have come and gone, yet we have had some very good people move in. That is until the Holiday Season of 2008. I could make this a long, long story, and hopefully it will not be too long.
Anyway, the people who were put in (two apartments), were not correctly checked out and we ended up with a bunch of hard core squatters, criminals and drug dealers/addicts who decided to have all of their buddies move in. The problems on a daily basis and continued throughout the night here. It was so hard for my land lord to do anything...he has spent thousands on an attorney to get these people out. They have no electricity(don't pay rent or bills) and stumble around. All of us neighbors have attempted to talk to these people, even get them help to no avail. At first we were unaware of the situation and we also contributed food, money, and some even gave them cigarettes to help out. Until the traffic started overflowing our little culdesac we had no idea of what was going on until one of the residents said that the other apartment was selling drugs and that he (another agency resident) was addicted to crack cocaine.
I will have to add some more to this later...It upsets me so much!
I have been wanting to write about this for days, but my other account on blogger disapeared, now I am brain dead with this new blog. There is so much on this situation, yet I can't think of a thing to say right now. guess this just burnt me out so much my brain is mush.
Right now I have to get some zzzzz.
Anyway, the people who were put in (two apartments), were not correctly checked out and we ended up with a bunch of hard core squatters, criminals and drug dealers/addicts who decided to have all of their buddies move in. The problems on a daily basis and continued throughout the night here. It was so hard for my land lord to do anything...he has spent thousands on an attorney to get these people out. They have no electricity(don't pay rent or bills) and stumble around. All of us neighbors have attempted to talk to these people, even get them help to no avail. At first we were unaware of the situation and we also contributed food, money, and some even gave them cigarettes to help out. Until the traffic started overflowing our little culdesac we had no idea of what was going on until one of the residents said that the other apartment was selling drugs and that he (another agency resident) was addicted to crack cocaine.
I will have to add some more to this later...It upsets me so much!
I have been wanting to write about this for days, but my other account on blogger disapeared, now I am brain dead with this new blog. There is so much on this situation, yet I can't think of a thing to say right now. guess this just burnt me out so much my brain is mush.
Right now I have to get some zzzzz.
Okay so two days later, I am writing about this again. I think that these people have finally left....though they have lied so much it is hard to tell. My landlord put an eviction notice 2x on their door.
This agency that put these people here I hope they never get to place any one here again. Don't get me wrong, I am all for people changing their lives for the better no matter what the circumstances. It just bugs me to no end when taxpayers spend so much money in 3 months free rent, furniture and food, for people to just abuse the system. This bunch were the worse abusers I had ever seen. Wow. It is just sad. There is NO laws to protect residents, landlords or the consumers.
A really good friend of mine who was the person that originally put these people here (and worked for the agency) did not want to be bothered by the problem. Our friendship will never be the same. Neighbors (and squatters) were alwayscalling and banging on my door all hours of the day to find out what was going on. "Where's the Landlord" "What is your friend doing about this?" I couldn't even go out to my garden without someone bugging me. So now I am just isolating from everyone. This has been such a sad situation. Any way it is quiet right now and praying that it stays that way. My health is also a mess from this, so I am healing.
Ya try to do good...sheez. As far as my friend goes, I am really disapointed in her for leaving me with this mess. We haven't been speaking. I wish her well though. She is basically a very caring person, but I think when things turned ugly, she couldn't handle it.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
A Few Minutes of Rambling
Right now I just need to set this blog up. I have been wanting to write about my feelings for days and what has been going on...only my last account disapeared. It was really nice too. So I don't know what happened to it. That's okay. This is a start.
Just a quick outline of what I need to write about:
Squatters next door
Health issues
Cruel People
My best friend (?)
Twitter
Do Dreams Come true?
Love life (mahhahahaha)
Neighbors
Gee, is that all of the stress for the last few months? The answer is YES!!
Just a quick outline of what I need to write about:
Squatters next door
Health issues
Cruel People
My best friend (?)
Do Dreams Come true?
Love life (mahhahahaha)
Neighbors
Gee, is that all of the stress for the last few months? The answer is YES!!
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