Ever since I had a head injury in 1984, I have suffered from dyslexia. It kind of kept me out of finishing my college degree and other aspects that I wanted to do. It's okay though, I feel much of the problem has been healed today and even though illness seems to enjoy sneaking up on me, I never give up. Some days when I write my books, it's a mess of jumble or ass-backwards--lol-but I feel that everything happens for a reason. Maybe having all of these problems helps me to work harder and not be lazy.
Even though, my best days may not be another person's best day, there is so much gratitude if I even get a page done. The most problem is the editing of a book and between the fibromyalgia fog and dyslexia, it can be quite a game. LOL.
Even though the pain can be excruciating and my mind spaghetti, I still feel that God guides me to get through the day. Many have it worse than me. I know this. Some of my most wonderful friends have passed away, and I always felt that they had so much more to live for than I did. In my heart of hearts though, I know that there is a reason for my existance. There is a reason why I even have to deal with this stuff every day.
Living with an attitude of gratitude truly helps. Being clean and sober for one thing (for almost 22 years) has been a true blessing and miracle as well. After my head injury silencing the depression-I felt as though drinking would help. Well, it didn't. So I quit drinking for my son, because at the time, I couldn't do it for myself.
So okay, today life is harder than some people have it, yet I know that Jesus is on my side and that I am accomplishing good-one day at a time.
There are days I really have to pray to write and ask for help when the dyslexia is harder than other times. Even if I write for 15 minutes, then there is a huge feeling of accomplishment.
God is good. I need to remember this every moment of every day, and not allow naysayers to live in my head.
No comments:
Post a Comment