What to Say...What To Say

This morning I woke up and thought...hmmmm, I am going to write this great blog and it was all in my head...you know just right there...then I went and checked emails...bopped around twitter...Art4theHomeless...Facebook...thinking of this great blog and then did the laundry...still the blog was in my head...Oh it was so good. I went to lay down for a few minutes...thinking of the blog and also about working on my book today and BAM! I fell into a deep sleep for four hours and woke up forgetting everything. Arrrrrggghhhh. The day was almost gone. Jeepers!

My health is so crappy lately. I am always falling asleep. I have a machine for sleep apnea, but today I was so exhausted. My blood pressure has been so high that I am having fevers and my diabetes is through the proverbial roof. So today...I decided to work even harder at my food plan. I am losing weight and have been since Feb 2009, but I have only lost 7 lbs. Oh how sucky that is. Inches have been lost, but I still feel like a cow. Oh somebody I know would love to hear that. LOL. A person used to always call me Ms. Cow on the internet. I hope she is well...even though she is evil.
So now I have to be more rigorous about what I eat. So I am pulling out all of the stops. I have too much to do in life then to be sick all of the time. I really need to lose about 50 lbs and that's not all that much. It's just keeping it off has always been the problem. If I were a celebrity, I would always be on the tabloids for the worst yo-yo dieter in history. They can send men into space, but they can't make a safe diet pill to help people NOT WANT TO EAT ALL THE TIME!
The tabloids are always nagging at poor Kirstie Alley...and her weight gains and loss. Thank God she is healthy because they came up with this garbage that she will die at age 62. How horrible to judge her like that. I guess we are around the same age and I hope to live til next year lol at the rate my blood tests have been going crazy.

I have always been so dang healthy years ago...who would have thought that all this crap would happen to me. God must want to keep me around though for something...
Hmmm. I wish I would know. Maybe He is wanting to tell me but I am DEAD ASLEEP DURING THE DAY!!!
Why is it that I have all of this cool energy in my head of all the things that I want to do, but my body refuses to follow through. ElSucko. Yeah, one of my favorite made up words...that kind of sums it up sometimes. God is good but life is ELSUCKO. LOL.

Well, this was not the post I had originally wanted to do. Oh well. I am off to bed. AGAIN? Ah life. ELSUCKO!