Walking Dead

Today I really felt awful sick. I don't know what is wrong with me and neither do the doctors. I am having more blood tests on Monday and seeing another specialist. It's frustrating for sure. I keep getting fevers on and off. It's been like this for awhile. The fevers accur usually in the later afternoon. My energy level is nil, but that is to be expected with diabetes, asthma, fibromyalgia and thyroid problems. Wow, a walking medical journel! It is what is is and I don't give up easily. If there is some reason that God does decide to take me home soon, then I will be joyous. There will be missed family, friends and of course my two pets who I worry about.
Yes, this sounds kind of morbid today, but by gosh I feel lousy. I was supposed to help a friend on Sunday, but had to back out. I feel to weak to help anyone and can barely help me at this time.
Though, if I do die tonight or soon-My prayers would so be for my son Christopher, my mom, and my pets. My prayers also go out to the homeless and those who are suffereing and alone. I pray that every organization, every person who has an extra dollar lying around give something to the homeless or donate to Art4theHomeless. There is no excuse in this country for people to be hungry, homeless, and no health care. It never made sense to me. It's unexcusable that people have no food or shelter or health care. It is also unexcusable that our veterens of war are homeless and that a person can not recieve free brain disorder meds. It is a shame and truly boggles my mind.
My dream was to make a difference. It didn't have to be loud. It could be anonymous, just to know that people are being taken care of in the greatest country in the world.

I wish that i could feel better tonight, but I can't even go to a hospital er because it's hard to pin point what is going on. Anyway, regardless of what happens to me, now or in the future, I know that God has me in His arms. I am always safe.